Feeling a little less shaken

I am feeling more focused today than I was the other night.  I feel like God has come along and lifted all of that negative feeling I had allowing me to relax.  I am still freaking out about financial aid for school, but that's something I can and will handle regardless of when I get my answers about it.  I can deal with this kind of stress.  Talking to my mom yesterday helped because everything I had worked out in my head as I wrote the other night I was able to put into words and she was with me in that she thought someone had just been toting tales and spreading negative around.  I just need to focus on doing well when I get back to classes and what I will say in the essay I have to write to get into the radiology program.
I pulled up the form again, to read it through and mull it over.  It asks you to write a one page, handwritten essay on why you have chosen that particular program of study.  My story is amusing to me, but I don't know if that's what they're looking for.  It doesn't weigh heavily in the admissions criteria, so I think I will just be completely honest and not write any baloney as I go.  The scoring for the essay is 4 points out of 100.  : )  I think honesty will be more fun.
I had been thinking about going back to school.  I think I've already said most or all of this in the last post.  However, what made school absolutely click to me was one of those usually annoying ads on Facebook.  This one said "become an ultrasound technician in as little as 18 months."  Clicking on it yielded nothing for me.  It probably yielded lots of mined data for the company that placed it.  I did search after search trying to find information on exactly how I could legitimately become an ultrasound technician.  Talking to my mom and brother finally revealed the answer - radiology tech.  I needed to take the courses to become a radiology tech first.  More research into schools led me to Gwinnett Tech.  I realize that becoming a radiology tech doesn't mean I will be reading the results.  It also will not always be cute images of prenatal babies - once I get to that point.  I realize that there may be a lot of hard things to see while learning, and finally doing, in this field that I have chosen.  However, if I can be part of the team that helps with the diagnosis of something that has caused someone pains or gives relief to someone who is anxious about their first - or fifth - child I want to do it.  It has taken me many years to find a program that I am so very determined to get into and succeed at and finally I am taking the first steps toward this.  I know that saying that something just clicked doesn't seem like a very hard and fast reason for wanting to get into a program of study, but that's why I want to do this.  Something just clicked when I saw that ad and nothing has swayed me since.